@10:27 PM
i am scared. i have this fear of swallowing the next pill. i am afraid of the overdose. not just the overdose, but also the after math. i would want to be your perfect girl. i am afraid of screwing uuuup. i know we're onyl human and everyone has like room for mistakes. i don't see this possibility here. i am afraid of my insomiac nights to come just worrying about you. why is this coming all so dramatic.
the timing is just horrendous. i need to blurt this out. i love you so much. but this is still getting me anxious in every thought i process. it is the words that you do not say that sometimes cuts thorough me like a knife.
you just have to know how stronlgy i feel for you and that it was not a drastic change falling...
i WANT to be theree for you. i so wanna "catch you if you fall". in every rise and fallll... just let me do my thing and i swear i would try to ease the pain, or enhance the joyyy.
its this fear that's picking my brain. i do not want to screw uppppp. you have me my lovely bones. the laman of my tinapay..
