@11:47 AM
hey..
friday was adventurous..
i don't understand why im so unassured lately..
i know what I want. but it seems like i can't have it.
the babe, and everything with te babe is fine.. you know perfect and all cos i'd klike to think that both sides already has matured, and take the relationship into a whole different level. i know that it would deepen, i think its more than of an ouside factor which is pulling me back.. i don't know what it issss...
now that right has been stripped off me..
i don't know what to do, cos its really up to me. and i don't know. i just don't know. i hate that decision. but i have to.. cos if i don't i'd be only bringing him down.. and that's being selfish...
phbbt.
this has been a relaly pouty situation.. :(
and its taking such a long time to unpout itself...
its the decision that i have to live with.. haii. thats the sad reality...
its correct..
and i am honestly being childish about it. cos i don't want to face it.. so pushing it aside is'nt helping. lucky there's a level headed personality which like kinda gives you a reality check..
reality...
we either choose to face it or ignore it.
if we ignore it.. it comes back 10 times worst. however... facing it.. its the same weight. but it just like.. i don't know sticks with you alot longer..
let go of reality...? then i'm just lying to myself..
the whole decision thing makes sense.. its easier being said than done.. thats all i have ta say...
dang
