@5:53 PM
girl, he's yours..
fate fate fate. a reaction to what jia jun said.
hehe. people might think im like just moving along with fate.. i am grabbing life by the balls i hope. :)
i don't liek being told that im too much then another later on. it just confuses me.. and ives me unnecessary emotional choova.. i dont like it at all.. seeing is as well as believing... im not supposed to care about what other people are saying. however, sometimes they are just probably stating the obvious already. once again. im in no postion to pass a verdict..
can fate really reveal the remedy?
over time it would. who would wait for it to be revealed? thats just stupid. someitmes folowing your instincts can lead you to good times. i do believe when the elders say they know better. maybe this is what dad was trying to keep me from.. the emotional war.. its not easty hearing sweet things and yet finding out that your out with a specific person. its not nice at all.. then being told then im still loved? and mind you.. im too much.. haii.. im not basing this on what other people are saying, but the words that were sent from you to me.
yes.. fate wil reveal the remedy..
however riding aloong with it hurts you... so damn babes. grab life first... whatever happens. happens...
at the analysis.. i believe what you've been saying to me was too much.. i never said i couldnt handle you.. only the situations.. but i always found ways to tackle. i may have given up.. but always followed the flicker of hope..
i failed to then.. what was i supposed to do? what happened THEN. was really too much already.. for me to handle.. were you even aware that you werent the only emotional stress? did you ever consider that i had another person, a really close family member, that would be departing temporarily for a while..? that departure has been so hard on me.. have you ever noticed it? did you take those feelings into consideration...
consideration... im the one inconsiderate..
you left the note back on my folder.... dont touch my sticker! i took time doing it.. but i put the sticker back..
i realize that ive been doodling the word peace alot... i need, a peace of mind wiht you...
i think what you meant was i was inconsiderate hooking up.. mind you, there was nothign going on between us then.. haii.
how ould one just say things. over a SINGLE situation that the other is too much. the past keeps appearing... its really leading us to no where talking about it.. i hope you re-analyze what was realy happening on my side.. i dare say that it was too much what had happened beforei left.. and ll i did was just found a way to deal.. i did say you were too much.. when you hurt me directly. infront of your friends.. when there was actually something still going on with us..
i dislike what was said to me. im hurt by it.. but you know what? thats life.. it slaps you in the face once in a while.. im growing up, there are more to come, and worst they shall evolve.. im trying to deal with it... it would be nice to have just decent 2 weeks.. for this month.. and those words said.. hit rock bottom.. tore it apart man.. after everything i had gone through for something great to live i was too much.. was i ever appreciated for thos sacrifices? righ? loving someone is when you sacrficed yoru happniess and ignored yourself.. i did that.. infact.. i sacrificed my relationship with my family.. thank God it has been recovered.. have you ever thought of that..
i think ive been through a roller coaster. i really honestly loved it.. remember.. its the journey that counts..
so now. who's the one who's too much? im not saying its you.. but you telling me im too much. without deep thought..
im not going to tell her anything. its not my life. but if i see something wrong, only as a righteous acquiantence shall i help...
howww could you say something so cruel..
i cant hate you... i cant. i choose not too..
why?
cos this thing which people call love.. blinds it...
but no.. im too much.
