@5:57 PM
heyya
its so frikkin hot here.
i might like turn up into a flame.
im in lola's place.. its the summer heat swear..
needs the cold..
well some lucky asses are havign that. HAHA. like my boyfriend, Jan Robert Latosa Flores, hahahhaa.. who's liek up in tagaytay. some place called canyon woods. hahah sounds like some rich playground to me! :p
well thats some cool shit.
i wanna swim so badly. original plan was to go to greenhills and catch a movie or something.. i just really wanna check it out!
blame the radio..
well yea. streeet food. yay. kamote.. yay..
its so hot. theres liek afan blowing at me.
im listening to the iPod. itsl iek the closest thing from keeping me sane. hahahaha.
Bob Marley baby..
exact song! "three little birds"....
evryone has something to do in the weekend. im so seriously uselesss..
no one even reads this anymore.. well its not like anyone diid before!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA.
bitchfest monday with lexi. yehey!
its so hoooot.. my gally!!!!!!!!!!!
its a frikkin oven
im sprung...
got me doing things i never do.....
lalalalala..
what the hell am i suppose to be doing i watched two movies already.....
monster in law and fever pitch..
both havin romnce. but monster in law was great..
we tallked last night.
much has been said is liek my theme song i swear. well our? i dont know ewith you. hahahah.
im itching up cozz im so frikkin hot iin here..
im kinda missing so many things. i miss singapore. i thought i would have never mised it. but damn do i miss it..
i think im PMSing. but lately is liek i feel no ones really listening. liek really listening. its pretty hard. but oh well. i feel lik e my life is takin the down turn.
you know the feeling of "not feeling good enough". and my oh so inevitable feeling of stupidity.. :(
im finsing it hard ot type with the normal keyboards now.. too used to the labtop.. hahaha. what bullshit right... bullshit. the perfect word to describe me and my state of mind. i feel humiliated. iui proably am being hujmiliated at the things being saud to me. maybe if i didnt srew up as much none of this would have happend. and i sure a hell wont have to fbe feeling this way. its just too much for my brain to handle.. too much..
i guess.. haii. if things are relly like that, im not going to be able to find myself anymore......
i have to so badly.. i want to so badly. right now everything seems to be a blur!
HAAAII. summer looks like shit...
i hope this is all temporary..
im not being praning...
im chilled kaso. chilled. but im really on the low. nothing seems to be helping. instead im getting messages liek 'yea you should be the one..' idea like i never seem to be doing anything. i mean if things liek this keep being thrown t me, im bound to break.. and just smash into pieces. im slowly like decaying inside.
so much thing si want to turn back... so many.
im so stupid.
and the things around me seem to just drill that fact into my pillow head..
"there's nothing that i would'nt do"
omg... big omg....
went through the fire for you.. - john legend
hai fuckkkkkkk.=( ='( =
maybe i just need to be really distracted. but thats not helping at all....
thats why im figuring myself out. whats so wrong with that.....
probably not the right person for you. never was. how can thi be a one way thing. it was never liek that. besides.. who's the one who has the balls? haiiiii. lets just see what happens. im giving it my all. eventhough its so restricted. pero.. one way.. one frikkin way. no one can see it. only people out of it are able to see it....
i dont want anythign to turn out ugly. heck no..... just so sick of some things. so sick of it...
its always your credit. HAI. then i have to prove it pa. grabe.
theres so much things i need omg. you know i always have os much in me. that when i wanna so it liek verbally.. i don;t anymore. what is wrong with me that made you feel gthat way tpwards me? whta is wrong with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i know im not that pretty. not as "free" as other people.. not as groomed.
WHAT IS ITTT!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
haiiii..
Maybe tomorrow we’ll find
A taste for the old days hard lessons
We’ve left behind
This mirrors an open door
I can barely stand to see myself
I don’t know what to do anymore
I’m crying out for help
thats my fave part of the song..
